There are a lot of words to describe my life; weird, crazy, unconventional, non-traditional, hilarious, adventurous…I could go on all day. Randy and I share big parts of it like kids, grandkids, causes we are dedicated to, our love for each other. What we don’t often share is some of the crazy (although you can probably read between the lines most of the time), some of the tears, frustrations, or even all of our happy. That’s mostly because I have an incredibly private husband (I know, I know…you wouldn’t have guessed that from reading the paper or watching the news) and partly because we live in a world full of judgement and criticism.
But hey, haters gonna hate.
Here’s the thing, I am firmly convinced that God planned out both mine and Randy’s paths to bring us to where we are today. Because of that, I don’t want to hide what makes our life so different. I don’t want to hide the ugly parts, the unfinished parts, the parts that have come unraveled or snagged. Because I believe that God uses those things for His glory because He is the one who planned it all out.
So, yes, there is a 25.5 year age difference between me and my smokin’ hot husband. And I believe that we are in an imperfect marriage designed by a perfect God. We have two kids who are not that much younger than me. Yes, that can be hard, but I 100% believe that God placed us in each others lives for a reason.
And y’all, I’m a grandma.
Or “Geege” to the absolute best and sweetest and most precious little 15 month old girl that has ever walked this earth.
And I have relationships with my husband’s ex-wives. Praise the Lord for that.
I believe that BOTH of those relationships are proof of God’s mercy and grace. God calls us to love. And while both relationships had rocky starts, one is about has perfect as it can be and the other one is getting there.
God promises that His grace will be sufficient. Actually He said,
“My grace is sufficient for you, for my power is made perfect in weakness.” Therefore I will boast all the more gladly about my weaknesses, so that Christ’s power may rest on me.”
Believe me when I say that none of this life that I lead is about being perfect or being strong. Believe me when I say that I am weak and fully admit my need for Christ and His grace. In fact, all I have to boast about are my weaknesses.
My parents still don’t really approve of my marriage. And that’s ok. I am-once again-convinced that the Lord is using that too.
I am not totally sure. Maybe to break me of my need for the approval of anyone but Christ. Maybe to make me trust in the Lord with ALL of my heart. Maybe to make them trust the Lord more. Most definitely to push me towards the cross.
As I watch friends and acquaintances start their new marriages (to people their own age), or have babies, or even begin new careers, I look at my weird, crazy, unconventional, non-traditional, hilarious, adventurous life and have total peace that I am exactly where God wants me to be. Yeah, my husband is not exactly my age-and don’t be looking for any Garcia-Robertson babies- we may have a odd-looking family tree, there may be parts that don’t make sense to the outsider, but my hope is built on nothing less than Jesus’ blood and righteousness.
This life didn’t just happen. It was mapped out before Randy or I were even around. And I believe that God will be faithful to complete that which He began.